Hi everyone,
Welcome to 365 Days of Poetry & Honesty <3 I’m back !! and I feel like I know where I want to go with all the poetry. There's a vision I have and I want to see it through, follow it to something solid & tangible, I’m hoping. And I think all the time about the cruelty of hope, how voicing a dream/desire can make you feel foolish, because who are you to want ? But still, most of the time, it's all we have. Anyways I feel like I say the same thing over & over again but I read somewhere that repetition is like the life-blood of romance, or in this case, I’ll call it love.
But what I want to say today is go wild be reckless with love, then pull yourself back to the beginning & live like a woman who knows herself because maybe knowing yourself is knowing your limits knowing what matters to you and what you have to do to protect & sustain it. And really what i'm trying to say is i forgive myself, not that i think i need forgiveness, but i understand that there's a part of me that does and I often let that guilt lead the way.
Here are some songs I’ve kept with me this past month!
& a poem to mark the start of the month! by Alex Dimitrov
Monday
A reflection on where I was this last time last year 2021. It still hurts to remember but I made it through!!
Tuesday
Stuck at a crossroads. I’m yearning for intimacy, in the way that's explicitly romantic, but everything is like a web and I don't want to get entangled, I want to be able to run away. Which is in the opposite direction of love. I think there's something about loving that means forgetting yourself and sometimes that's a good thing sometimes that's a bad thing, I’m afraid
Wednesday
Driven wild by lust
Thursday
FREEDOM SONG
Friday
Life Affirming
Saturday
part of a longer poem! I feel haunted.
Sunday
You can only ever take in/see what resonates & sometimes a voice remains a stranger, either way, there's still beauty in expression, no matter the ‘coherency’
Thank you for reading this week’s newsletter. Let me know your thoughts on the poems ❤️
With love,
Phoenix