Hi everyone,
Welcome to 365 Days of Poetry & Honesty! This week I’m coming to you feeling subdued. Everything still aches & I wish I wish I wish I could feel better and be better, but this is my reality and I can't be somebody else and I can't punish myself for not being somebody else. I need to meet myself where I’m at and stop trying to bury every painful emotion because they don't disappear, they just live beneath all the rubbish and the rubble waiting for the storm that will force you to confront it. Though I wonder if there's a gentle way to clear the wreckage because I’m tired of the heavy rain and the thunder and I’m exhausted. Would love to undo the creature inside me !
But here's some good news! I have something exciting to share with you, which is that I’m putting on an event 💌 It's called Black Geographies: Songs of the Humpback Whale and it's a night of poetry and music that focuses on the power of language as a tool of resistance and self-definition! & on the 14th March / 7-11pm / @ Reference Point / we’ll be exploring the ocean as a landscape of metaphors for transformation, resistance and faith, with Julie Dash, Toni Morrison & Kara Walker at the centre. Please come <3 It's going to be a beautiful evening.
Monday
my favourite word is river
Tuesday
i’m thinking about wounds. about misery & my inclination towards self-harm and whether or not that makes me hard to love.
Wednesday
march is a month of storms & lust & i’m think about how certain colours bring out the life from inside you and i’m thinking about how this desire is like a fire that won't go out.
Thursday
love has taken the shape of filth. i want to die. truly!
Originally it's 5:30 but i changed it to 5:15 in honour of the Bridgit Mendler song. & the title of the poem is Pedro Salinas !
Friday
like a dove inside my throat! i think your name has wings !
Saturday
unhinged i think !
Sunday
Ocean Vuong ! i love the myth of Orpheus & Eurydice. i think, like Gregory Orr writes, loss is the one sure song. i look at the sky sometimes and think prove me wrong but always the lesson is loss.
Thank you for reading this week’s newsletter 💌
With love,
Always,
Phoenix
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